Sanctuary
Open Heart Surgery | 2024
Behind the song
This song was the first I produced for Open Heart Surgery. I lost the file for it 3 times (making 4 full iterations of it.) It tells the story of a chaotic relationship where I felt trapped, defeated and like I had no choice but to stay. Building the courage to leave, I eventually called it quits and started writing "Sanctuary" as my way of healing. I wanted my 'F*** you' moment - as I'm sure everyone does at the end of a relationship... but I'm not an angry guy, so "Sanctuary" was born!
Thought we said this was over?
Never thought it’d last any longer than that
But I wish i weren’t stone cold sober
Cause I still think about the nights we had
I reserved the right to love you, through all the times you didn’t want me to
And I was trying you’re lying, now I’m lying here alone
But don’t be calling me up in the middle of the night whilst I’m all choked up and you feel alright
I don’t wanna know who you slept with last night or the girl next door, how she missed her flight
You never cared about the dreams we had when we wanted to run away to annoy your dad, but you said your ma’d miss you and you’d still feel bad
So we said “fuck that”
But girl, now you just went and let me go, so
I’m not your sanctuary
I’m not your light in the dark
I’m not your one call away but you said you never loved me anyway
You’re fine on your own, it’s a fresh start
But don’t run back to me with a broken heart
Cause i’m not yours, now I’ll never be ahh
but who cares? you fucked with my heart
I never wanted to cause another problem with you
I was hovering close cause you said you wanted me to
Fill another page with the feelings you left me
and write a fucking song to make it feel less heavy I
Burnt the house down
Poured bleach on your best gown
I guess you could call this a funeral you’re a ghost to me now,
No you’re not worth my time, and I hope the guy you’ve found breaks your heart 10 times
you’re not the woman that I fell in love with anyway
You said that you’re the one,
Nah I’m the one that made the mistake
Now that sounds right, but you sure put up a fight
I’m not your sanctuary
I’m not your light in the dark
I’m not your one call away but you said you never loved me anyway
You’re fine on your own, it’s a fresh start
But don’t run back to me with a broken heart
Cause i’m not yours and I’ll never be ahh
but who cares when you fucked with my heart
I messed up too but I was good to you,
You turned my happy days to shades of blue
I love my friends, and we all hate you,
I’m just happy I told them all the worst of you
I’m not your sanctuary
I’m not your light in the dark
I’m not your one call away but you said you never loved me anyway